I Am the Bird

You came. Good.

Today is the day. Everyone is here.

I could not tell you how many we are; we do not count the way you count. The old ones are here, and the ones born this summer, who have never been where we are going.

You have a word for what happens now. Migration. You say it the way you say a great undertaking — a thing with a start and a finish, a thing to be mapped and studied and worried over. It is a strange word for what this is. We are not starting anything. We are continuing to live. And living, at this time of the year, points south.

Here is the part you find hardest to believe: nobody called this meeting. No message was sent. Nobody was told where, and nobody was told when. For days, something in each of us has been leaning. A restlessness under the feathers, like the feeling in the air before rain. The light grew shorter. The body grew heavier. The lean grew stronger. And this morning the air was right, and everyone who felt it was standing in the same field, facing the same way, and nobody was surprised.

We do not rise at dawn. That surprises you too, I think; you like your departures early. We stand in the cold grass and we wait, because the road we use has not been built yet. Our road is built fresh every morning, by the sun.

The sun warms the ground. The ground warms the air. The warm air rises, and where it rises, there is a stair. You cannot see it. We can. When the first stair is ready, somebody’s wings know it, and then everybody’s wings know it, and the field empties upward.

We climb in circles, together, hundreds of us turning in the same slow spiral, almost without moving a wing. From the ground it must look like smoke that has decided to be patient. From inside it is simpler than that: you find the rising air, you let it carry you, you keep your place among the others, and the earth lets go of you a little more with every turn.

At the top of the stair we stop climbing and start spending. Wings out, still, we slide down the sky in a long straight line, giving our height back slowly, until the next stair takes us. Climb, then glide. Circle, then line. That is the whole secret of how we cross a continent: we borrow our road from the sun, one stair at a time, and pay for almost none of it ourselves.

Others of us pay differently. You have seen them: the ones who cross in a moving arrowhead, each riding the small wave of air that rolls off the wingtip ahead, and taking turns — because the front of the arrow is the one place where nobody is carried. I borrow my road from the sun. They borrow theirs from each other.

Some mornings the sun builds nothing. Rain, and the whole people stand in the wet fields all day, waiting. You have seen us on those days and thought us patient. We are only grounded.

There is a place, far ahead on this road, where the stairs end and the sun builds nothing at all. I will tell you about it when we reach it.

Not everyone who rises with me this morning will land at the end of this road. That has always been true, and we do not discuss it.

This is also why my day is short. When the sun goes, the stairs go. We land where the evening finds us — a marsh, a shallow, a riverbank — and we stand together in the dark, sometimes ankle-deep in cold water, resting among others of us we have never met and do not need to. My road closes at night.

Not everyone’s does.

Do not measure the people of the air by me. You have handed the microphone to one bird, but there are ten thousand kinds of us, and I would be ashamed to keep their share of it.

I have cousins who take the sky for a bed. Some barely touch the ground for months — rising with the summer, eating aloft, drinking aloft, the earth become a rumor beneath them. Others sleep in the air itself, in sips, sometimes letting half the mind rest while the other half stays with the sky, one eye keeping the height.

And somewhere in the world, as I speak to you, a cousin I have never met is crossing the widest water on earth without stopping once. No food. No landing. Nothing below her but water — day and night and day and night, until the far shore takes her in. You have a word for a long run, I believe. A marathon: forty-two of your kilometres, and people stand along the road to hand you water. I mean no disrespect. Her crossing is two hundred and fifty of those, back to back, over open water, and nobody hands her anything. She has done it every year of her life, and her mother before her, carrying nothing but herself.

And the singers. I told you I have no song. My cousins have enough for all of us — more than enough: many of them carry two voices in one throat. Where you have one instrument, they were given a pair, and some sing with both at once, two notes braided together, faster than your fingers could play them. You called their voices music — and you loved the song so much that you put it in a cage. For centuries, in your houses, a small cousin sang to you from behind wire, and you fed him, and cared for him, and never once opened the door. I am not sure you ever decided whether that was love.

And the dark one — the one who did not leave when you built your towns. He stayed. He walks your streets, he learns your habits, he knows your faces far better than you know his. You made him a warning: a bird of endings, painted into your stories wherever something was about to go wrong. Nobody has ever told him this. He is busy watching you. Most of us let you watch. He watches back.

And the one you call the fastest animal on earth when she falls. You measured the fall yourselves; I will let you keep the number. Her eyes read the ground the way you read a page, and falling at that speed she takes another bird out of the open air, mid-flight, exactly. You saw all of that, and you wanted it on your arm. You covered her eyes with a little hood, carried her like a treasure, flew her at your prey, and she came back to your glove. Thousands of years, you and she. Of all the arrangements between your kind and mine, that one puzzles me the most. She can leave at any moment. Mostly, she does not.

We have been in your story longer than your story has been written down.

And in the world far longer than that. You found this out yourselves, digging: our grandmothers in your stones, wings pressed into rock from before there was anyone to look up. You say the great terrible ones in your glass halls are our old family, and that we are what remains of them. We do not keep records. But nothing about it surprised us.

You read your future in us, once. Your priests stood on hilltops and watched which way we crossed the sky, and armies waited on the answer.

And your past — for centuries, across much of your written world, your words travelled through the tip of a feather: your laws, your scriptures, your debts, your love letters. You trimmed the quill from a wing, dipped it in darkened water, and what you now call knowledge walked across the page on it. My old friend the water and I carried your words between us, and neither of us has ever read them.

And when you wanted your messengers of God to cross the distance between worlds, you gave them our wings. You gave them also to creatures that had never flown — lions, horses, beings assembled from pieces of worlds that do not ordinarily meet. Whenever the earth was not enough for something you imagined, you seemed to know what to add.

For all of that, you did not know where we went. For most of your history, you argued about it. Winter came, we vanished, and you filled the gap with stories: that we slept at the bottom of lakes; that we flew beyond the sky; that we turned into other birds until spring. I like those stories. They are wrong in a way that shows how hard you were trying.

Then one spring — this is a story you tell, not one of ours — one of us came back to a village far in the north with a spear through his neck. A spear from the south, from deep in the continent below. He had been struck there, and had carried it the whole road home, and lived. You looked at the spear, and suddenly one of your stranger explanations became harder to keep. He called it, I imagine, a heavy year.

From up here, let me tell you what I see today, since you cannot be here.

I see the river. It goes where the land tells it to go, the way we do. I have watched it cross your lines without slowing down.

I see your fields. They puzzle me, gently, every year. Almost nothing in my world has straight edges. Clouds do not. Rivers do not. Flocks do not. Coastlines do not. But your ground is cut into straight-edged pieces, each piece a different green, as if the land were something you had divided rather than something you were part of. In some of the pieces stand large slow animals in groups, heads down, all facing more or less the same way. In other pieces, machines are doing work that animals once did. I remember the animals.

I see the roofs. My kind has nested on yours for longer than either of us remembers — on your chimneys, your ruins, your towers. There is a tower I return to where a man sings before sunrise, every day, alone, up toward the sky. I do not know what he is singing. I have raised eleven summers of children to the sound of it.

Behind me, spread across the morning, are the ones born this summer. This is their first time. They have never seen the road, and none of them is lost — not because they know the way, but because they are among us. The direction was already in them when they hatched: a lean toward the south and the west, laid down before their first feather. What was not in them is the road itself. That part they borrow — by keeping close, by climbing where we climb, by landing where we land. The lean they were born with. The road they borrow from the old.

I said the road is the same every year. That is no longer quite true.

Some years we return and something has changed. A field has become houses. A wet place has become dry. A line of trees is gone. A tower stands where there was open sky. You have your words for these things; I do not have words for them. I only know that yesterday I could land there, and today I cannot.

And some of the old ones no longer come at all. Far along the road, near the big water, they found the mountains you build out of what you throw away — warm, endless, never out of food. They stand on them all winter now, and do not cross. Why would they? The lean says go; the mountain says stay; the mountain is closer. I do not judge them. The young still cross — the lean is in all of us at the start; it is the old who stop first. But something has shifted there that I do not have a name for.

For them, you have moved the seasons.

One morning, days south of the rising, the stairs carried us over a long valley. Along the floor of the valley ran one of your fastest things — hard, and shining, and louder than weather, running on its fixed line, never turning aside, never eating, never sleeping, faster than any runner the ground has ever carried.

And in a field beside the line stood the runners themselves — the tall four-legged ones. One of them watched us pass this morning: head up, ears turned, following us across the whole width of his field. They are the only ones down there who watch the sky that way.

Let him tell you himself.

— Karim

Chapter Two of The Other Inhabitants — the series in which each chapter hands the microphone to one animal. If you are new here, it begins with the preface, I Am Not Your Bird. Tell me what he got right.

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